Second marriage leads back to first husband
Dear Amy: I have been married to my second husband for five years.
I hold a great deal of animosity toward him, because in the beginning of our relationship, he let his teenage children disrespect me.
I became a person I did not recognize nor like. I felt like it was always three against 1one and I had to stand up for myself, sometimes being a mean b---h.
He also has medical issues because he doesn't take care of himself. So now I live with a man who cannot be sexually intimate with me (and is OK with it). He shows me no affection, but says that he loves me.
I am constantly trying to create intimacy between us, but it is always in vain. I am only 49.
A few months ago, my ex-husband started telling me how great and sexy I looked.
I was starving for attention. One day he came over to bring something for our daughter and we ended up having sex.
I know it was not right, but I felt like myself again for the first time in several years. We have continued to be intimate when we can and even though I know what we are doing is wrong, I do not feel guilty.
I feel good again and treasure the moments, but I am also upset with my husband and feel he pushed me in this direction.
I do love my husband, but I am not in love with him anymore. I am so frustrated and confused. I need an outside opinion.
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